Unsatisfied

I feel very unsatisfied with my life as of late.

i wake up too early each morning. i do motions through the day, passing the hours ... but doing nothing satisfying.
then I come home and watch-tv-away the hours of the evening until I fall asleep. Sometimes I do some planning or projects for school. It's May and I don't know what I've done for the past 9 months of my life. Nothing.

I am so unsatisfied. There is no other way to put it. I'm not growing educationally ... spiritually ... emotionally ... physically (feeling physically better, not getting fat). Nothing is improving. And being stagnent at age 23 is a sad, sad thing.

Today I was told I was "a good little teacher" by my principal. I felt honored that she notices me and thinks highly of me enough to say such a thing. But what was with the "little"? I think they find me a joke. As stupid as that sounds - I still come in with the creative writing, the art projects, the fancy posters that are hand-made. I'm not hardened..yet. I'm not strict..yet. I'm not trying to get by with the smallest amount of work by me..yet.

Today my principal said that "When I ask for A,B,and C .. you do A,B,C,D,E, and F". That's good...right?
Or maybe it's stupid on my part. I'm not sure how I should be doing on this job. I want to give my kids all I have - but it seems not worth it 99% of the time. It's not appreciated. It's not respected by the students or other adults.

I see why teacher burn out.